20th December 2015 will be a date I’ll remember for the rest of my life. Two years on I’m now at the stage, where I can reflect objectively on the experiences. Those of you that are regular readers on my blog will know this is my 5th post on the subject.
My thoughts and feelings about the experiences have fluctuated, often due to the treatment I received when I initially broke the leg, and the on going pain I have been in, but I’m also thankful for the experience. It has made me re evaluate, what I want from life. Two years on I’m in a better place than I was even before I fell down those pesky stairs.
Following on from the last blog — loving the dead leg again, where I talked a lot about the pain I was in on a daily basis, I have had a further operation which removed scar tissue from my ankle. This has made a difference, I still have pain, but there are some days where I’m pain free, and I can walk a little longer and tolerate standing up in the morning meeting at work. Pain will always be a part of my life, I’m struggling to remember what my pain was like before, so I can’t really compare it. But my weekends are no longer waisted resting in bed, I have enough energy to do something. Those that know me well will know during the worst times I would just say I want the leg chopping off, and joked about chain saws, and what sort of blade I wanted to replace my leg.
I have a lot of people to thank, my family, friends readers of this blog who have often sent messages of support, and of course the OTalk* girls who have all been a consistent support. I know I have not always been easy to get on with, at times shutting people out.
In my revaluation I looked at want I wanted from life, and what I had already achieved and had. The career I love, a home, close friends and family, but no one to share this with. With the support of The Otalk girls I ventured into the world of online dating, something I would advocate, if you have ever thought about it, it’s an odd world and you need to be careful. I had some weird conversations and dates, which created much amusement within the Otalk WhatsApp group.
Five months again I found someone very special, who shares my hopes and dreams. He is caring, supportive and has quickly become a firm fixture in my life.
So without falling down the stairs I don’t think I would be in the place I am right now. I hope to draw a line under this experience and move on to a new chapter. I have recently become an Auntie for the first time and although I have fears about how my physical health impacts on my ability to help care for her, I’m learning every day.
If I have learnt anything its that Life is good – live it, you can always work around the barriers life throws at you.
Thank you for reading, Merry Christmas and Happy new year.
*OTalk is a weekly twitter chat planned and organised by myself and 6 other occupational therapist across the UK and Ireland. https://otalk.co.uk/about-2/