For regular readers of my blog you will know I fell down the stairs and broke my right hemi leg just before christmas last year, however if your new to this blog you can read more here Part 1 and Part 2.
Since my last blog post a lot has happened, however the effects of the brake still have a an impact on carrying out daily occupations, and managing my emotions.
My biggest frustration has been foot wear, my right foot and leg remain very swollen despite daily stretches and exercises given to me by the physio. This has limited me to one pair of shoes. It surprises me how something as small as not being able to choose foot wear to match what your wearing or how you feel, can effect your mood. I have not wanted to go to the pub with friends, felt I have not looked professional at work, and just broke down in tears at the thought of needing to dress up.
One large change has been my bathroom, I have had a wet room put in. You can read a blog I wrote about it here for Impey showers http://impeyshowers.blogspot.co.uk. In short it has changed my life, feeling safe in the bathroom, has given me my confidence back. Plus it looks amazing.
In the weeks leading up to returning to work I set myself a number of challenges to increase the amount of walking I was doing, however the weather was rubbish so I had to be creative. Museums and art galleries were good spaces to use with plenty of places to sit for a rest. The apple watch as come in handy again, as you can monitor how much walking and exercised you do. I have used it to set myself targets and increase them weekly, I find it motivating.
I’ve been back at work for 6 weeks now, the first 2 doing half days building up to full days, I’m now work 4 days a week. I can walk around inside unaided however still feel the need to use a walking stick outside. I’m trying to lift my foot fully off the ground to prevent tripping however I have had a few close calls and without the stick to support me I would a fallen again.
I missed work whilst I was off, but found getting back into the routine difficult, I found myself forgetting things, not being able to concentrate in meetings, and overwhelmed with emails and new responsibilities. I questioned if i could still do the job feeling inadequate most days. However my team has been very supportive, there were days I felt like not going in, but stuck with it. By about week 5 these feelings of inadequacies began to lessen.
Last week I attended the COT conference in Harrogate, a big challenge both physically and for my attention span. I decided to take the wheelchair just incase I needed it, but set myself a goal to walk as much as I could. I felt a little stupid walking a round with an empty wheelchair, however there is no safer place to do that, than at an OT conference, full of friends and colleagues from both real life and those I have met online. I had lots of positive chats with people about my blogs and experiences, and as always the conference itself gave inspiration and hope for the future of the profession. I will return to work with fresh eyes to face to next challenge. However physically it was difficult, determined not to complain I took pain killers, ploughed through and on the odd occasion had a quick cry to myself (but that currently is normal).
The last six months as been one of the biggest challenges so far. To readers I would like you to take away two messages. Remember to work with the whole person, assessing how whatever you’re treating them for effects them both physically and mentally. Trauma no matter how small can have lasting effects, the trauma might not just be the event that started off the need for your input, it can also be the process of getting through it, don’t be part of the trauma be part of the recovery.